I guess without describing in detail about my current situation, the above paragraph will roughly let you readers guess, what kind of shit i'm going through. Music is what I turn to when I feel this way. But when it gets too much for me to handle, it just kills my mood for music. In the end, I'll just shut myself from the outside (e.g. not going online, not communicating with anyone) and lock myself in my own room, doing what I want to do. When I'm old enough, I'm just gonna step out and get lost for once. Probably leave for another country without telling a soul about it. I want to backpack around the world, probably alone or with a couple of close friends. I want to go for random camping trips @ the beach or somewhere quiet.

Sometimes, we try too hard to suit people's expectation, and in turn we start to lose ourselves. I really need September 5th to come fast. At least, now I have something to look forward to.