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Hello darlings! Currently at my godmum's and you guys must be wondering why I'm not asleep! Will update when I get home(?) or when I have time to. For now, I will get back to what I'm doing first! Gonna try & finish doing it by today! My first late night after I returned from Thailand!
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Updated on 26th Sept'11, 5pm
Only got home yesterday @ 0030hrs, and as expected, I see black and stern faces and hands on the hips. In addition, more than 10 missed calls. And my answer: I just didn't want to come back, when everyone is pulling a long face and arguing non-stop. Its not a home anymore.
Kinda got sick and tired of everything that's happening, and I really just wanna get out. If their definition of family is to hang out every single day and having "Family days", I think they are exceptionally wrong. To me, being a family doesn't mean we have to be there physically with one and another. Its more about emotionally and spiritually - where we can confide to and rely on when we met with any obstacles, or things that are making us unhappy. But currently, I don't see and feel that. Its becoming like a place, where it provides me a roof over my head, and nothing else. Cried over @ godmum's and she consoled me and all. She is like a mother to me (not that I despise or hate my mum tbh). She's always been there for me when I needed a listening ear. And I feel so much happier when i'm around her. Not that I want to compare, but thats the reason why I grew close with my godmum. And knowing that I'm over at my godmum's place, my mum will always call and ask me where I am and everything. I mean, how unsafe can my godmum's place be? She should know by now, that when I'm over @ godmum's, I don't leave early, or I will have stayovers. She should know this by now, because I have talked to her about it, saying that I am always reluctant to go home whenever I'm over at godmum's. I really don't know why she is still so worried about my safety, when she already knows this.
Enough with the emo nemo stuffs! Was over at godmum's, to help upload all the photos onto the blog and facebook, because we've received good news - A group of Caucasians are interested in taking over our "project" in Mae Sod! Godmum was still worried about the children there, because we are monetarily tight and we will not be able to provide for the children's and refugee's necessities. So now, me and godmum are working hard, to put down our reflection onto the blog, so that the group of Caucasians will better understand our point of view and the things that we've done!
While at my godmum's!
So today, I'm down with reaaaaal high fever and sore throat. To be exact, was yesterday night. Was so drowsy and weak, that I didn't have strength to pull myself up and go home! Felt freezing cold and I covered myself up like an eskimo. It's like serious hangover - light and sound seems super intense, felt giddy/dizzy, legs felt weak and I couldn't walk properly and breaking out sweat. My highest temperature was 39.1°C, and my phlegm (sorry for being disgusting here!) was red, like there's a tinge of blood :/ Went down to the doctor's, and he suggested that if my fever does not subside after 4 days, I'll have to admit myself into A&E, for he worries its malaria. Let's hope my fever subsides! *fingers-crossed!* Was supposed to meet Joey today, but due to my high fever, I couldn't. :( Experiencing body aches now, and my head is super heavy at the moment. Slept almost for the whole day today, even though I keep waking up in between. It sucks to be ill :( Have no appetite for dinner, but I need to eat before I can take my medication.
p/s: the baby at home is shouting and playing on her own, but it's killing my ears now! Not because its loud, but like any sound to me seemed super intense right now.
p/s/p/s: managed to get free guitar lessons from godmum's son! &godmum is gonna give me one of her guitars! First song: When You Say Nothing At All!
♥EUNICE.L
